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Monday, May 28, 2007 Esc Main Com Hey guys. just to let u noe that ur votes have make me successfully become ESC Main com!! Yohoo~ Cheers ~ well,though i didnt reali get the post that i wanted but still,i am aiming for other post. wahaha~ hopefully i can do my very best for it n prove to those people who didnt vote for me cos they tink i am not up to it. But still,i will continue to learn for the better!! :D Thanks to those pl who have faith in me. :) At least u guys gif me the chance!! Muack. Now been busy working with my current new job. Gonna work as many days n hours if possible cos i must work at least 22HOURS per week. Can u see how tiring i am?? Plus i'm in main com now.. wooo~~~ Gonna plan my time reali week for 3 areas;studies,work n main com. Gonna let em noe i can handle e stress!! not gonna gif up anytime~~ Sharon sharon fight fight fight!!! Thats all. do tc guys. All the best for ur upcomig term test :D :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Thursday, May 24, 2007 Sorry for not being updating my blog these days. I have been real busy this week which is kinda unexpected and unprepared. Everything seems so last min,so rush... finally the elecion is over and the results will be tml. I reali cant wait to c the results. I wonder how many pl voted for me and i wonder what position will end up in. I reali have to say my future is in their hands. Their votes shall decide where i would be. haha~ But seriously,i would like to say a Big THANK to everyone who have voted for me. Sry tt i send a mass sms to u guys very late. Cos these days i have been staying up late to study n rushing out projects so yah.. But still,u guys voted for me.. hehe~ N thx for helping to spread the msg around and even ask ur fren to vote for me!! :D Seriously thank for all ur help. I reali own it to u guys no matter what the result might turn out to. But hope i can get the position that i wanted to be in.. :) Tml will be my 1st day of work at BISHAN J8 BALENO and i cant wait. hopefully i can reali stay awake cos these days i didnt have enough slp so yah.. haha~ Thats all for now. Thank u guys once again.. love u deep deep :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Sunday, May 20, 2007 hey guys..i am runnin for ESC Main Com Election this time round. So support me by voting for me from 22-24May 10-6.30pm @ cyber center. The voting system is very easy de. Dun worrytoo much. Dunoe can ask the people over there.. :D I would oso appreciate if u can spread the words around to vote for me. I wun disappoint on u guys who pin high hopes on me and even my senior effort. U see how i worked b4 and u see how much i can contribute to ESC. Together we work as one ENG,u vote for me and u cant be wrong.. I can gurantee u that.. Thats all.. thank u for ur attention!!!!! :D  Done by SME Farhan  Done by me... nice?? Gif comments pls.. haa  This is oso done by me!! Nice?? haha~ ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: He's back again~ Well as i thought that i have thought it through after realising that eventhough the guy that i truly like dun like me,dun see my inner beauty, theres always a group of people who truly love me and appreciate my inner beauty. He dun wan me, my friends all wants me! When the week after the incident, i was going thru depression. I didnt smile and laugh as i always did. All my friends find me strange n feel uneasy when they see me like this. They even feel hurt for me which i deeply feel sorry abt it. So,in order to be who i am again, i began to laugh n smile the week after. There's nth much reali happen for the first few days as i was busy doing my project assignment and even for the ESC Main Com election preparation. Everyday went home till very late and stay up till very late too. Though i was feeling real stress and busy, at least all these keep me busy n kept me away from thinking abt HIM and the sad incidents. However,there the saddness came back again. He went back to sch on fri.. After so long...,i finally saw him again.. :( My friends was asking whats my reaction when i saw him that day. Of cos i feel shock when i saw him cos he was saying hello to me like as if no happen.. But somehow after the incident,we no longer chat thru the msn. He didnt take the initative and it seems he was expecting me instead. I reali dunoe what i should do right now. What is exactly our relationship now? Are we still friends?? It seems we are no longer like what we used to be in the past anymore.. HOW?? :'( Straight after dinner when i saw him again.. I cried. I cried on Marianne's hug. Pang was consoling me. Maybe i reali nid time to cool down n reali forget abt the matter. Maybe at the end of the next semester, his attachment is over, by then i can reali get over already. Maybe again by then,we can be wat we used to be already and start things over again.. :) :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Saturday, May 12, 2007 Well,i have been hiding my feelings all these days ever since what happened. I am feeling really very stressed n troubled. All is written all over my face. To those people who have been noticing me realised that. Really thanks for ur concern. Thanks u for asking so many times if i'm really okay. Obviously that i'm not. I have been feeling very quiet,tired,troubled. I'm sorry tt i refused to tell u guys what is going on with me but somehow maybe blog is where u can even noe more?? Well,i finally cried after so long ytd. I was talking to Pang,one of my best guy fren ever in poly!! This is our 1st time that we chatted for long like for about 2 hour plus?? Long huh? We were having heart talk ytd thru fone. I was waited for him as he said he wanna call me for a chat. I waited for him until i fell asleep. but still,i wake up to chat with him till 3am... Yawn.. haha~ I was telling him all i wanted to say all these while n i really cried all my hearts out. He was feeing heart pain for me.. i keep crying when i was talking n telling him my side of story. After i said finish, he said to me that there is no point crying over for such a Bastard who dun even appreciate me or take e effort to noe me better or even c my inner beauty. Other people have been telling me how GREAT i am in fact. I was touched n amazed after what they told me. All these while,i didnt noe that i am really very CUTE in their eyes. They felt like pinching my face at all times or even hug me. I'm seriously okay with that as long i nv push u away lah.. Besides that,they said i have a GREAT smile n a GREAT personality. The people around me will naturally feel comfortable n the warmth from me. All my Frenz looked very happy whenever they took pix with me. As for my personality,haha~ Wat can i say yeah?? All they told me that i always brighten up their day. :D Really thanks for the compliments on these. N whatever i said to people,i oso didnt noe that they actually remember every single thing tt i've said. I didnt noe that what i said at times make some sense n logical to em. They said i looked like a big sister whom they looked upon on and a gd fren to have. Whenever they feel like talking to someone,they will think of me and they will look up for me. My ears is always open for everyone n my shoulders is oso definitely open for everyone to lean on. :) Just like what my frens always did that to me. :D They find me reali sweet n like a Guardian Angel to em. Always say sweet words to em that reali brighten up their day. Always there for em when they needed someone the most. Seriously,when I heard all these from em reali make me feel really damn better. I didnt noe the POWER in me. I seriously didnt realize that until u guys told me so. I dont know if all these is said to console me or it is the fact,i reali appreciate it. Thanks for loving me so much as i love myself. U guys r simply GREAT too. Pang said there is sure a even better guy will be there for me but its just not the time yet. Its okay that the guy dun see the so many good points of me but others will including the guy tt like me. Cos it is really not a easy task for a GIRL to confess n waited for a guy n hide the feelings for so long. N yet get rejected when the GIRL confessed n knew tat she have been waited for so long. The guy reali dun feel moved or appreciate. I seriously rejected quite a few when i was still waiting for him. but somehow its okay. I tried not to like anyone but wait pl to like me den.. lolx~ But if once again i hv feelings so someone again,i tink i will be very brave again to tell him how i really feel. Hopefully by den dun get rejected cos i believe,if u dun gif u n the other person a chance,how u noe things doesnt workout somehow?? Of cos u must see who's that person too yeah?? :) Thats all for now. Sorry that i have been trying to upload photo but this blogspot.com failed to let me to do so. perhaps wait till few days later alrite?? Take care people ;) :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Monday, May 07, 2007 It is the SADDEST day ever out of my 18 yr in my life. Do u noe why?? I really cant stand the way i am feeling right now. I cant say it to anyone cos they will worried. So i decided to write it down in my blog. First time i ever confessed my feelings to a guy tt i deeply in love with. All i tot tt we have feelings together and there are many coincidence that led my feelings for him fell even deeper. As at times when we have our own personal outing with all the camp frenz.., for sure have the both of us.. Even at times,he make me feel that he came down for the sake of me as i am the one who asked him to go or even persuaded him to go.. N i managed to did it w/o failed. though at that moment of time,i still cant confirmed anything but when i told all these things to those fren of mine,they kinda suspect too but at the same time that doesnt mean anything. :( But still,i still follow what my heart told me so n continue to love him. I tried to stay by his side as much or as long as i can whenever i c him cos i'm really afraid of losing him. I dun wanna lose a fren like him too. I like him for almost 6-8 months n i kept my feelings for him till now. I felt it unbearable and that was why i decided to confess to him on his bday. Maybe u were thinking why must be that day yeah?? I oso didnt mean to do if he happens to feel lost or shocked to noe abt this after reading my letter. But to prepare a present for him,i bought for him a PC Wallet from "The Wallet Shop". It is not a matter of how much does it costs me but the value that he have in my heart but somehow i tink he dun get it. He msg me after he read the letter. Though i get rejected,somehow what he wrote is very very saddening. To those fren of mine whom i showed the message to em,they kinda feel huh?? I dunoe how should i say it right over here.. but somehow i dun feel the appreciation by him.. Kinda sad huh?? But all i can say i expected this kind of outcome not denying that i dun hv the confidence when i choose to confess to him. Whatever it is,it is a experience for me as in my 1st time doing sth that needs alot of courage for a girl to do this. It is really not easy if u can really put urself in our girls' shoes. But still, hope he like e wallet n will see him use it no matter what.. :) I noe when i told some of my dearest abt it. They were rather worried for me. Trying to talk things out with me n console me. Thanks for being there for me when i needed u guys the most. Thx for being so sweet and caring as always. I really feel so loved n warmth.. Thanks once again. But seriously though maybe sometimes u guys c me smile here n there, or even hear my laughter very loud,i seriously feel heartbroken deep deep inside my heart. But somehow,i didnt cry ever since den though i feel sad. I seriously dunoe why this time round,my tears didnt rolled down. Sth suprising n sth weird. But somehow sorry if i happened to be kinda quieten down as in looked troubled,dazing or thinking abt something. Some how,i guess nid to be alone ba. Can be happy n high out of the sudden but at e same time,sit at one corner n keep quiet n hear u guys tok n joke around. :) Thats all i wanna say.. But dun wry,i will be fine. I believe i can walk these things out of my life..!! :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Wednesday, May 02, 2007 Hey guys.. instead of just waiting for the rest of the photos to be uploaded. i guess its time for me to just update abt my side.. hehe~ Well,new semester has just started. It was tiring. The reason was because i didnt really rest enough after my Orientation. Straight after that day,i worked at night and the day after i worked full shift. So,i was really feeling tired during at work. Not much energy. But somehow no choice cos nid to work to earn money.. :( N as days goes by,i began to feel stressed over my studies. I felt abit laid back due to my understanding level on my subjects. I find it kinda difficult. More tt i spend time on is inside lab. So i hv to wear covered shoes t all time. Feet really stink at the end of the day.. lolx~ But at the same time,i really missing alot of pl already..The graduates,those pl who went out for attachments n including those pl who is in sch having attachments. Everyone seems so busy. I suddenly felt so lost. Dunoe what to do. Dunoe where to go.. Really show how they really mean to me n i did tell em alot of times tt I MISS EM!! Some of em laugh,some of em feel touched.Awwwwww.... I been crying these days. Really hope they r around wit me. I really really miss the past... No one noe how i am feeling now cos i dun wan to add it to their burden. I may seems jumping around being happy at all times n laugh out loud too. But they will never ever noe how i really feel deep inside my heart. But i did get to cry it out infront of my friends. Sry if i make a shock out of ur life n make u guys feel so helpless. Sorry Cos of these,it makes me miss the guy tt i really love now. I miss him alot. How i wish i really rely on him totally. Thank god that my fren is there for me to console me by allowing me to lean on their shoulder or even get a hug from em. I seriously needed that.. But too bad the guy that i like still dunoe how i feel towards him. SAD.. but his bday is coming soon n i cant cos tml i am gg to get him a present.. hehe~ However currently i am abit cash tight but somehow i still must get him a present which is kinda costly. Hope he get the msg once he received n open it.. Imagine a girl who bought a costly present to a guy all by herself. what will the guy tink?? Hope he will get the hint.. :D Wish me luck okay?? Wahaha... :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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