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Saturday, May 12, 2007 Final Tears Well,i have been hiding my feelings all these days ever since what happened. I am feeling really very stressed n troubled. All is written all over my face. To those people who have been noticing me realised that. Really thanks for ur concern. Thanks u for asking so many times if i'm really okay. Obviously that i'm not. I have been feeling very quiet,tired,troubled. I'm sorry tt i refused to tell u guys what is going on with me but somehow maybe blog is where u can even noe more?? Well,i finally cried after so long ytd. I was talking to Pang,one of my best guy fren ever in poly!! This is our 1st time that we chatted for long like for about 2 hour plus?? Long huh? We were having heart talk ytd thru fone. I was waited for him as he said he wanna call me for a chat. I waited for him until i fell asleep. but still,i wake up to chat with him till 3am... Yawn.. haha~ I was telling him all i wanted to say all these while n i really cried all my hearts out. He was feeing heart pain for me.. i keep crying when i was talking n telling him my side of story. After i said finish, he said to me that there is no point crying over for such a Bastard who dun even appreciate me or take e effort to noe me better or even c my inner beauty. Other people have been telling me how GREAT i am in fact. I was touched n amazed after what they told me. All these while,i didnt noe that i am really very CUTE in their eyes. They felt like pinching my face at all times or even hug me. I'm seriously okay with that as long i nv push u away lah.. Besides that,they said i have a GREAT smile n a GREAT personality. The people around me will naturally feel comfortable n the warmth from me. All my Frenz looked very happy whenever they took pix with me. As for my personality,haha~ Wat can i say yeah?? All they told me that i always brighten up their day. :D Really thanks for the compliments on these. N whatever i said to people,i oso didnt noe that they actually remember every single thing tt i've said. I didnt noe that what i said at times make some sense n logical to em. They said i looked like a big sister whom they looked upon on and a gd fren to have. Whenever they feel like talking to someone,they will think of me and they will look up for me. My ears is always open for everyone n my shoulders is oso definitely open for everyone to lean on. :) Just like what my frens always did that to me. :D They find me reali sweet n like a Guardian Angel to em. Always say sweet words to em that reali brighten up their day. Always there for em when they needed someone the most. Seriously,when I heard all these from em reali make me feel really damn better. I didnt noe the POWER in me. I seriously didnt realize that until u guys told me so. I dont know if all these is said to console me or it is the fact,i reali appreciate it. Thanks for loving me so much as i love myself. U guys r simply GREAT too. Pang said there is sure a even better guy will be there for me but its just not the time yet. Its okay that the guy dun see the so many good points of me but others will including the guy tt like me. Cos it is really not a easy task for a GIRL to confess n waited for a guy n hide the feelings for so long. N yet get rejected when the GIRL confessed n knew tat she have been waited for so long. The guy reali dun feel moved or appreciate. I seriously rejected quite a few when i was still waiting for him. but somehow its okay. I tried not to like anyone but wait pl to like me den.. lolx~ But if once again i hv feelings so someone again,i tink i will be very brave again to tell him how i really feel. Hopefully by den dun get rejected cos i believe,if u dun gif u n the other person a chance,how u noe things doesnt workout somehow?? Of cos u must see who's that person too yeah?? :) Thats all for now. Sorry that i have been trying to upload photo but this blogspot.com failed to let me to do so. perhaps wait till few days later alrite?? Take care people ;) :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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