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Tuesday, September 30, 2008 Unable to blog Hey peeps. sorry that i haven been updating my blog these days cos my lappy is with my bro-in-law so i dun have any computer for me to access to the internet. Im currently busy with my major project and working at the same time. hehe.. I missing everybody!! Everybody are being loved and missed deeply by sharon!! HAHA Take care ppl.. wanna go out wit me, do fixed a appointment with me! :D :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Friday, September 19, 2008 These days i have been really stressed up with my projects and staying up late. I have been really very tired till i always overslept and i fell asleep very easily whenever im not doing anything else. Im simply tired. I nid more rest. How i wish i can complete my proj ASAP.. PLSSSS :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Monday, September 15, 2008 i dont know why i have been really very tired recently. omg.. i nid something to spike me up can?? HAHA :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Friday, September 12, 2008 Well, this afternoon out of the sudden, the previous HIM whom i mentioned in my blog, clicked on me and chat... I was rather shocked as it was the third time he clicked on me FIRST.. HMMM... I can still rmb.. HAHA The first line that he types was he owe me apology. I was confused in the first place why he said this until he paste the phrase that i written in my blog. Somehow he knew that im referring to him and he was sorry about it. I den asked him how he noe it was him and stuff like this. He somehow could guess it and from the start when i gave him my bloglink and he read it, he already noe my feelings for him. I continue to clarify with him some matters when i get home. I told him who is the person im referring to and he told me that he told one of his closed fren who happen to be her closed fren. I was shocked and he is not even that close with her. We actually had a little arguement here and there b4 we end the conversation. I didnt expect myself to go up to him again to talk things out. Somehow i feel there is a need, cos i wun feel alright too. Though it is not my fault, but somehow clarify things is better than leaving things unsolved. Thats not me!!! :) He said he not gonna trust anyone anymore but i was telling him that he can 100% trust me. Cos im a person whom ppl can trust. At least i keep secrets when i was told to and i choose ppl to tell my secrets to. I noe who to trust and not who to trust after my LAOS trip. But still, we are still good friends no matter what. He was rather shocked after so many things happened, i still wanna noe him better. hehe~~~ We chatted more after that.. All i wanna say is that, its up to u to decide if im trustworthy to u.. but soon u will noe. U will love my characteristics and soon, u will have to tolertate my nonsense and craps. I believe u will get to see the REAL ME. Dun believe what other ppl said abt me but u urself. See it with ur own eyes and spend the time with me. Soon,u will get to noe me better :D I dun care what my friend said why i like u at the first place as long i noe im happy being with u. :D Friends forever!!! Im a fren u can totally rely on, a person filled with strong personality who can bring laughter n joy to ur life! A Fren who is worth having around at all times :D Thank u for allowing me to love u once. Thanks.. feelings cant be forced anyway.. :D :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Wednesday, September 10, 2008 Im so pissed that i gonna write down the present and the past Special HIM in my heart. But lets tok abt the PAST HIM. Well oh well.. i dun reali gif ppl my blog link unless gave em myself. But if they were to ask me for it, normally i wun depending how close or how long i noe the person. Cos i do not want any unnecessary comments being leave behind in my tagboard and spam them. The first time i gave my bloglink to a guy that i like though i hardly noe him that well. I tot we r getting along rather smoothly and i tot our relationship r getting closer when the times goes by when we keep chatting online. Though that doesnt mean anything, but i tot, the time of waiting for him may prove everything abt my sincerity and my love. I just wanna let him noe how much i really miss him when he's away from Singapore. However, i do heard that he told his fren that i was badly in love with him. BUT.. WHATS WRONG WITH THAT?? I just dont understand what is he thinking. I tot he will do the same thing to me when im away for LAOS for barely 2 weeks. He didnt even asked abt my life over there. Simply nth from him. Im so sad when im there though i been telling my group mates i have someone in my mind that i cant be bothered to look at the guys over there. My friend are more sweeter than him. They showed me how much they reali miss me when im away. They cnt hear my laughter, my voice and my jokes. They feel weird when im not around. Im touched when i chat wit them thru msn, voicecall and webcam. They are simply SWEET!!! When im at LAOS, met alot beautiful people including the perfect guy. HAHA~~ I came across this present HIM. He touched my heart with his honest answer from his heart. I believed in him and im fooled again at the end of it. Whatever he say is just he is being honest. All blamed to the NAIVE me. As long guy treat me good or say those sweet nice thing to me, i fall into it. Indeed, im STUPID when it comes to LOVE or R/S. DAMN!! He rejected me, he oso rejected my help. He said be frenz and this is what he treat me. He really think more than me. I dun even care abt his background, his past or how far will we go in future. I never even think that much cos what matters the most is IM HAPPY WITH HIM and IM HAPPY when hes around me. However, since he keep saying that hes a loser, worthless to me, i shall grant his wish and shall not disturb him any further... :( Well oh well, Deming suddely asked me abt Olieng. I dunoe what to ans him. He asked if i missed Olieng? I just answered yeah.. I do miss him and the rest. But somehow he trying to tell me sth behind it. BUT still.. i shall not think anything more that that. When Olieng said he miss me out of the sudden, i do feel weird but somehow, i find him sweet and replied him that i miss him and the rest too..HAHA~ We began chatted more ever since then whenever hes online. When he online, he always msg me regardless he is busy at work. At the same time, Odd msg me too. A guy who always brighten up my day thru SMS. The text that he send over is simply make my day till the extend i laugh out loud in public or in my lab. So now, u can imagine how funny the sms was. HAHA~~ Well oh well, what im trying to say is.. ACTIONS speak louder than words. If either one of them reali like me as what they have been telling me that they r interested in me, den prove it den. But for the moment, i just cant keep telling myself that GUYS ARE BASTARD. Seriously. Somehow i nid to take some time again to adjust myself and my feelings. So for the moment, NO NO NO to alot of things.. :) Im trying to live up my life to the fullest. So friends, spread ur LOVE to me. Cos at least i noe ur love is the truthful of all! YEAH.. thanks friend :D :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Today is my PR2, Finally there is a little progress though my grp have yet completed. What im trying to say is that, after our presentation to our CU HEAD, Ms Kwan, she fully understand the process we r undergoing. She didnt realise there is so much limitations on each proj. Therefore it took us very long for the overall progress. She didnt expect much from us. She just hoping that we could complete regardless how big or how small the project is. She just wish we could implement the necessary criteria that we told her that we r doing. Anything advanced we wanna put inside the game, implement after we have accomplished the basic requirement. :D Well, all i could say the presentation for today was rather successful. In our presentation, we demo all the games that we have done so far and half way too. She was rather impressed with the effort and work. She fully understand the progress was not easy and we even emphasize the difficulties that we faced. At the end of it, she wished us the best of luck and she dun wish to see us extend that long.. haha~ :P As my group were preparing for this presentation and the necessry documents, we slept quite late the day b4. Around 2-3plus. We were so tired the next day and we requested to have a half day. I went to Bishan to look for SnK staff and passed them the gifts that i bought from LAOS. They r loving it. Too bad i only stay for a short while as one didnt work, one got sth on and one nid to go Office due to last min notice. DAMN!!! Moreover, im meeting Alvina in the evening to discuss abt OCT camp prog.. hmmm Went home to slp till the time is up, i wake up and head down to CENTRAL to meet her. We ate and talk while discussing our work. It was fun!! and we cam whore once again.. ENJOY PPL~~~             My Self Pix Moment.. WOHOO~~       msg to him : Today my fren came to ask me in what way will i like or accept a guy? Well, i have no preference actually based on feel. Depend when u met or know the person in accident or know the person for a certain period of time. If a guy like me, the first thing i will ask is to ask the questions such as why u like me and what u see in me. If the guy said something that really melts my heart and i can see that he reali notices me, he is the one im looking for. Cos i believe, i will be happy and be blessed to have a bf like him.. :D But b4 anything happened between we two, u came up to tell me how u feel about me and what u see in me. Im not a really a high self-esteem person who believes in myself. Ur words melt my heart and seriously moved me. I really feel real and great for the first time. That is when i like u and decided to noe u better. I do want u see how much i like u. I believe one day, u will be touched my sincerity and fully understand the reasons behind it. Regardless how worse u think u are, i still like u and accept who u are and what u are. No one is perfect and thank u for still able to see a beautiful and perfect side of me. Though i cannot be there for u as i want to and be there for u, im glad that u will be happy and smiling whenever u talk to me. =D Do jiayou k? Miss ya always ;)  :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Tuesday, September 02, 2008 He broke my heart. he didnt contact me when im away in LAOS. Thats it. Isnt the signal that he gave me rather obvious?? Well oh well.. LOVE Failure again.. HAHA~~ So be it den. Who LIKE ME, bring it on!! Im single and AVAILALE ONCE AGAIN .. HAHA :P Other ppl deserve and appreciate my love more than u do. Im not that perfect as what people think. HAHA~ people have yet to see the beautiful side of me! People still cant accept who i am, regardless of my appearance and my personality. Is there something wrong with me or is there someone 100% PERFECT in this world? I dun dare not say im forcing them to accept me but u never try, u never noe. Cos u cnt forsee how far will both of u go unless u guys reali try. Am i so unworthy for ur love? no point praising a person till so good and that u obviously will mislead the person. And just as i told the person that i like him, the person ended up telling me that he only regard me as gd friend. He is just being honest abt what he thnk about me. But, all this kind of thing i had enough alr. I guess never ever again i going to be close to a guy or believe everything they said about me UNLESS ACTIONS. Actions speaks louder than WORDS afterall. No actions, no talk. p.s: im not blaming u my dear. i noe u reali mean what u said from the bottom of ur heart and u reali mean it. Thank u for making my days with so wonderful and meaningful. Thank u for being the 1st and the one & only person who said that im perfect and im beautiful. Though we enjoyed having each other and talking to each other, but still, it is just my imagination, my own will. i shant now dare to think that much anymore. NEVER! Dun feel bad or guilty for misleading me. Though we may be impossible and it may not turn out in reality, but still, thanks for making me feel so damn special and make the time tgt unforgettable. THANKS. Dun ever feel that u r unworthy for my love and there will be even better guy suitable for me. As i told u b4, no one in this world is perfect. When ppl said they love u, they reali mean it. It oso means that they see something in u that no one will notice. U r special in the person's heart, if not, u wouldnt been attracted to the person. Am i right? Well, for now, we shall take things at a step. I couldnt take it thats why i let it go. I dun mean anything too.. U get what i mean??So many GAYCUS thing happened and im shocked. So.. i decided to say it out and be sure that u r NOT GAY which i think u r not. Thanks for listening to me and thanks for believing in me. We shall see how things go okay? unless u willing to gif urself and me a chance to noe each other better... Love u my dearest fren.. Moment like this song is dedicated to u! Thanks love ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Back from LAOS Finally i come back from LAOS. i finally got the photos! However, most of the photo is too big. I couldnt upload. So sorry peeps. But u guys can go over to take a look. Im a lazy girl.. :P Well, i shall write down about what i think about this trip. In this trip, I went with a group people which consists of people whom i have seen before but dunoe that well. However, through this trip, we get to know each other better and we all become good friends. :D The friendship and the memories that happened in LAOS will still continue even when we came back to Singapore. We went thru thick and thin together in LAOS. Therefore the bond within us became stronger than ever. We all learnt a lot in this trip and we would want to share with everyone. The fun, the laughter, the memories and the success! All hardwork is being paid off at the end of the trip. We met lots of wonderful people in LAOS and even get to noe their culture even deeper. We talk and shared our feelings that we have for this trip. All our answer is the same. The ONE and ONLY REASONS that captured our heart that is THE PEOPLE. Regardless of different races, different country, different languages or different religion, we will try our best to communicate and get to know each other better. We get closer day by day and the more when the day are leaving soon, the more we dont bear to leave and say GOODBYE. They r really very friendly and helpful. They noe that we have been working hard for this trip to come over there and they noe we would want to have fun and SHOPPING afterall. They will always asked when is our FREE TIME or even if they r allowed to bring us out. We were really touched by their warmth and love. And eventually, we become GOOD FRIEND wit the LAO YOUTH People. We sms, call and invite them to our room for some card games. HAHA We really had fun for the past few days with them. When its during the last week, we began to get emotional. We said lots of touching words to each other and how much we dun bear to leave to one another. Took lots of photos so as to keep the memories. They shared with me the first time when we first met and how they feel towards me. I never ever feel so GREAT before. They really compliments me and really know the another side of me. Im simply grateful and thankful to them. They r really my GREAT STUDENT CUM GD FRIENDS i ever get to meet in this trip. Though its just 2 weeks, everything seems so amazing. We called, sms and msn non-stop when we came back to Singapore. We teared, we sing and we dance b4 we go. That moment is simply unbearable. The friendship and the memories that we created together in LAOS..., do hope it will still grow as stronger as ever. Now, both sides are saving money to go over again. We really wanna be with each other longer. So now, we must jiayou..!! For friendship and for memories. We will never forget. Deep misses and love to everyone within our group and the ppl over there. :) Besides that, about our ppl in our group. What can i say about them man...?? HAHA From a stranger became friends and eventually we became GOOD FRIEND. From a normal fren whom we already noe became BEST FRIEND. We really get along very well day by day. Its my pleasure knowing them and thank God for giving me this chance to met them. They r just one bunch of fun loving people. Reali cant imagine my life without knowing them b4 i graduate. LOLX~~ We depend on each other very much and We even took care of one another at all times. When we saw people are sick, we will show our love and concern towards the person. We took care of them and ensure that they r alright at the end of the day. Whether over there is hot and humid. Therefore must drink lots of water. In add, we oso ensure everyone safety when we r IN and OUT of the hotel. We always do head count b4 setting off to a place and even leaving the place we are. We will get worried and panic when we lost one person in a team. We became even cautious since den. Cos, afterall, we are at unfamiliar country. We dont know anyone there, unfamiliar with the route and the lang prob with the people. All we have to do is to be HEALTHY and have FUN. When we get there, we just be as crazy and hyper as we can. We dun care what other ppl might think of us cos this is who we are, the REAL US. We always work things out together no matter what and help one another whoever nid help. We became closer and closer till though we still can get to see each other the next day, we dun bear to leave. :( Just wanna thanks the ppl within our grp and LAOS for everything. Thank u for walking with me in my journey and thank u for being part of life. I will always remember the time we spend together. Do hope our friendship still remain as strong and may we always go back to LAOS again.. :D CHEERS :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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