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Wednesday, September 10, 2008 Pissed Im so pissed that i gonna write down the present and the past Special HIM in my heart. But lets tok abt the PAST HIM. Well oh well.. i dun reali gif ppl my blog link unless gave em myself. But if they were to ask me for it, normally i wun depending how close or how long i noe the person. Cos i do not want any unnecessary comments being leave behind in my tagboard and spam them. The first time i gave my bloglink to a guy that i like though i hardly noe him that well. I tot we r getting along rather smoothly and i tot our relationship r getting closer when the times goes by when we keep chatting online. Though that doesnt mean anything, but i tot, the time of waiting for him may prove everything abt my sincerity and my love. I just wanna let him noe how much i really miss him when he's away from Singapore. However, i do heard that he told his fren that i was badly in love with him. BUT.. WHATS WRONG WITH THAT?? I just dont understand what is he thinking. I tot he will do the same thing to me when im away for LAOS for barely 2 weeks. He didnt even asked abt my life over there. Simply nth from him. Im so sad when im there though i been telling my group mates i have someone in my mind that i cant be bothered to look at the guys over there. My friend are more sweeter than him. They showed me how much they reali miss me when im away. They cnt hear my laughter, my voice and my jokes. They feel weird when im not around. Im touched when i chat wit them thru msn, voicecall and webcam. They are simply SWEET!!! When im at LAOS, met alot beautiful people including the perfect guy. HAHA~~ I came across this present HIM. He touched my heart with his honest answer from his heart. I believed in him and im fooled again at the end of it. Whatever he say is just he is being honest. All blamed to the NAIVE me. As long guy treat me good or say those sweet nice thing to me, i fall into it. Indeed, im STUPID when it comes to LOVE or R/S. DAMN!! He rejected me, he oso rejected my help. He said be frenz and this is what he treat me. He really think more than me. I dun even care abt his background, his past or how far will we go in future. I never even think that much cos what matters the most is IM HAPPY WITH HIM and IM HAPPY when hes around me. However, since he keep saying that hes a loser, worthless to me, i shall grant his wish and shall not disturb him any further... :( Well oh well, Deming suddely asked me abt Olieng. I dunoe what to ans him. He asked if i missed Olieng? I just answered yeah.. I do miss him and the rest. But somehow he trying to tell me sth behind it. BUT still.. i shall not think anything more that that. When Olieng said he miss me out of the sudden, i do feel weird but somehow, i find him sweet and replied him that i miss him and the rest too..HAHA~ We began chatted more ever since then whenever hes online. When he online, he always msg me regardless he is busy at work. At the same time, Odd msg me too. A guy who always brighten up my day thru SMS. The text that he send over is simply make my day till the extend i laugh out loud in public or in my lab. So now, u can imagine how funny the sms was. HAHA~~ Well oh well, what im trying to say is.. ACTIONS speak louder than words. If either one of them reali like me as what they have been telling me that they r interested in me, den prove it den. But for the moment, i just cant keep telling myself that GUYS ARE BASTARD. Seriously. Somehow i nid to take some time again to adjust myself and my feelings. So for the moment, NO NO NO to alot of things.. :) Im trying to live up my life to the fullest. So friends, spread ur LOVE to me. Cos at least i noe ur love is the truthful of all! YEAH.. thanks friend :D :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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