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Thursday, February 26, 2009 I nid a Serious Break! Gosh. I simply cant wait to go Bangkok. I mean it very Seriously! Im sick and tired of the lives im going thru all these while in Singapore. Cant wait to go Bangkok to have a short period of PEACE esp from my Family. :(( As usual...., i kinda dun reali like my family. I seriously dunoe how to explain but the situation is like this.... Though people said that im fortunate to have a complete family, however they are not aware of anything about my family background. I do noe that my parents have been working reali very hard for this family and i do noe that they r reali very tired. But as compared to other families, i dun tink there arent any much difference. How come their children dun have to work while i nid to?? And why their children are given a certain amount of allowance while i dun have?? All these questions have been wondering inside my brain and have been reali bothering me reali unhappily. I seriously dun feel happy at all when i stayed at home. Therefore i always spend my time out of my house esp in school or in work. When i work, im working for the sake of money. If i no money, i dun tink i have the money for any entertainment with friends and of cos get the things that i want or i like. As for in school, i get to noe more friends and they make me happy. At least they dun bothered me with lots of unnecessary stuff. One thing i couldnt tahan my parents is they keep complaining that they r tired. What abt me?? I have been working while studying since pri sch i guess. Earning as much as i can to support myself alone until i entered poly, i managed to fork out abit to gif my mother allowance and of cos pay my own hp bills. Sometimes, its reali not enough for me to spend. As days goes by,i managed to save up alot as i tend to be thrifty at times. However my mum tend to spend my money at times to buy her own things without my awareness or my permission b4 she swipe any cards. I seriously get very angry when i noe abt it as... its not a matter of how much but the matter of courtesy. I gave her my card is for her to withdraw to pay for my bills and my monthly allowance for her and not for any other purposes. She misused it and i took it back. Other than that, i have a wide circle of friends. However, that doesnt mean i have higher chance of bumping into the right guy to be my Mr Right. HAHA~~ I dun even have time for all including myself. How am i going to have time for her?? She sometimes very funny and informed me abt her last min OFF DAY. I just told her off that im a busy woman who keep working cos i nid the money. With the money, i do pay for whatever she would want or food whenever i went out with her. Thats how much i could gif her once in awhile. I have no time to accom her, thats how i use the money to repay the time that i didnt get with her. She just dun understand the meaning behind so do my friend except my collegues. :(( They dunoe the real reasons behind it actually. :(( I feel happy when i get to spend money. Seriously. I dun even have time for anybody including myself. If i were to keep always accompany her, when do i have the time for my boyfriend. That is why i dun have boyfriend now?? Perhaps?? I dunoe. I seriously very dulan to a big extent that i just tell my mother that if she wanna quit her job now is none of my biz. Cos i do not wanna hear any nagging that she's bored staying home alone. She should noe that every morning if she were to wake up, she will find nobody at home, everybody have left for work. Im not even free on weekends, what should i do?? I seriously wanna knock some sense in her and my dad too. So what if i have graduate? I nid a short break too! What for rush me to go find a job in which i have not rested enough?? At one point ask me faster earn more money so that they could retired and stay at home and dun have to work. And another point ask me spend more time with them. and another point ask me find a boyfriend soon?? Why have so much expectation on me in which i dun even get to enjoy the things that i reali enjoyed doing or get the things that i reali want?? Why do i have to go thru all this kind of unhealthy lifestyle living??? :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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