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Thursday, July 31, 2008 Do i have healthy R/S?
though at times, i may be grubbing abt the things i nid to deal with or unhappy with certain things, i will not hang on it for long. I will forget it the next day. Thats how a r/s should work. As in, when u quarrel with ur bf or so.. , u dun reali angry over it for long. Cos, this will worsen the r/s and the gap between both parties will drift apart even further. Instead, u can tok things out with ur loved ones. Sort things out and by then, a conclusion. Great R/S dun happened overnite. U will get to learn the mistakes that both of u have encountered and try not or NEVER repeat again. If not, the outcome wun be the same anymore.. :(( With my current status, Single, i tried to foster a gd relationship with all the friends around me and my family. :) Im honest, considerate and forgiving as much i can be. Im truthful to the one that truely deserved it. I wun waste my time on those ppl who dun even treasure me and dun cherished the memories tt we both spend tgt. Im honest with my own feelings. If any of the guy whom i like asked me if i have feelings for him, i will definitely be honest with my feelings and tell him the truth. If not, guess i dun tink i will have the opportunity. But if there is any guy whom i dun like but have feelings for me, guess i will be honest enough to tell him what i feel. Even if i dun hv feelings or interest in the person, i will reject in the first place BUT... i willing to gif it a try and see if things can work out UNEXPECTEDLY.. LOLX. cos i dun wanna missed any more. If i dun try, how i noe things doesnt work out?? YEAH??? I try to be considerate to those ppl around me. Put myself in their shoes as all my friends and loved ones have always been giving in to me. Im reali very thankful to em. Without their love, i guess i wouldnt be able to move on just bcos i dun hv a bf right now.. :D Thanks... Last but not least, as i have to be considerate, i have to be forgiving as well. I have to put myself in their shoes and think for em. B4 i can conclude anything, i must find out what happen. That is when forgiving is needed. If u dun hear things out, u r unable to understand and forgive. N forever, u r unable to forgive n forget. Well, indeed there are many ppl who have hurted and broke my heart, i will of cos still forgive em... But what they have done, i will never ever forget regardless what happens. SERIOUSLY!! Thats me, im sorry. Forgiving nid lots of courage to do so as i seriously do not wan any unsurvived r/s hanging around whereby i still get to see the person or stay in contact... :(( ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: I Reserved any rights to post whatever i want! ATTN whoever fucker have post comments in my tagboard. This is my blog. i reserved any rights to post or deco my blog. I do noe u have a blog of ur own. But the prob, this is my life. U guys hv no rights to interfere mine! I dun even read other ppl's blog except close friends of mine! So if i dun bother yours, why should u bother abt mine?? PLS GET A LIFE!!!! :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I'm a girl who are committed the things that i enjoyed doing or wanted to do. Thats me! I wun gif up easily though the previous post stated that i'm a person who dun stick to one thing for long. Well.. it is indeed true but.. partically FALSE. HAHA~~ What am i talking man.. HAHA~~ But seriously, when it comes to R/S, things will be different and indeed will be committed to the R/S itself with all my heart and soul. Thats is what i longed waiting for and i will treasure it well. BUT.. if the R/S turn out worse or starting to have probs, of cos i will have to settle it well and solve it. I will do everything that i can to make the R/S work and move on. I wun like some other ppl raise up BREAKUP word in any pt of the journey. Cos, some ppl couldnt take it even if u just merely mention it. It never cross my mind and i will never do it for sure. Thats show what kind of girl i am. Willing to do anything for the guy i love. BUT OF COURSE, the guy must LOVE ME MORE THAN i do.. :P:P We shall see alrite?? HAHA ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Can u spot a liar?
i often trusted someone too easily till i always get take advantage or hurt in the end. Am i too soft hearted and too silly??? This includes the guy i like. As i tot he has feelings for me just when he treated me very good, i think else wise. :(( ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Am i a wimp??
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Tuesday, July 29, 2008 Time flies. Now i left 17 days b4 i flying off to LAOS and its oso the time for me to tell those friends of mine who is the SPECIAL HIM. Anyway dun pin on much hope on him anymore le which i dunoe how to explain so yeah... *EMO STATE* My parents went overseas for 9 days or so. They will only be coming back on 3Aug. Which means i have to be MS LONELY at hm for the time being le.. :( In order to kill my time, i asked friends to have lunch n dinner with me outside. OR EVEN go out till late nite. HAHA.. Well, today i saw Alvin and Samuel from IBT. Alvin finally got gf le. HAHA.. last time he asked me out to tok abt the girl who rejected him but now.. situation changed!! :D Happy for him. But when its his turn to ask me, i become rather sad n emo. dunoe how to tell him but the truth. He feel sad for me and wonder what on earth those guy i like is thinking abt. Seriously, dun ask me, ask em den!! LOLX Thats all.. feeling sleepy. :P ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Whats my name mean??
Well the meaning of my name kinda true sia. UNBELIEVABLE. Guess everyone will get to noe the TRUE me after reading it yeah?? So.. THIS IS WHO AM I and WHAT KIND OF PERSON AM I !! :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Counting down of 20 days. Another day had just passed just like this. And soon, another week gonna start soon.. :(( I simply got too much things bottling me rite now. what should i do? Anyway below are some pix i have taken. As i simply have lack of sleep, i seldom dress up these days till recently. Below are a pix of it... :)    Recently, managed to call up some friends of mine to have a chit-chat session. Non-stop laughter and at the same time, lots of catching up session. Lots of unexpected things being revealed such as the person that we liked.. HAHA.. BUT TOO BAD.. they never get to noe mine!!! :P:P I cut my hair and this is how it looks..       On sat, finally is the Street soccer event. The day b4 slept around 2 and woke u around 6.45am. Deing so worried that i overslept, he smsed me and asked if i hv wake up. He bought for me, tiam seng and andy breadfast.. YUMYUM. The event went rather smoothly than what i expected. HAHA~ However, manpower wasnt enough but still.. everyone was enjoying themselves!! :)) Straight after event, we all slept in our clubroom b4 we had our dinner cum late lunch. HMM.. we had KFC n i treated ANDY as being our referee. Too bad ONG wasnt there... HMM... Straight after that, we supposed to watch movie. However, they have watched some of the movies and some of the timeslot was rather late. Therefore we decided to eat ice-cream.. YUM YUM... Tiam seng, andy, me and huimin... WOHOOO~~~    We were so full at the end of the day. Non-stop of fun and laughter today. Really didnt regret for not faking my MC. Its been so so long that i enjoyed myself under the HOT SUN.. Hmmm.. HAHA Below are some of the CamWhore pix that i took with my Treasurer, HUIMIN.. Whee~~~             take care ppl.. tml working full shift. my parents is away for 9 days. Guess i gonna be lonely staying at hm every now n den for those who understand my house situation.. :(( p.s: missing him every now and den.. hope he gets it.. :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Saturday, July 26, 2008 Though i am kinda tired after eating out with Alvina and gang, i decided to blog awhile.. :P My fren keep asking WHO IS THE SPECIAL HIM?? Well oh well.. i have my reasons for not revealing any single thing about him. In fact, i shall keep it from everyone till after i come back from LAOS. This is bcos i have everything planned b4 i go for him.. :D Wonder what is it?? Go guess den.. :P:P No matter good or bad the outcome may turn out, i still must let him noe how i feel. Waited for him for 3 mths and its not too much of me to ask him to think abt it seriously for this 2 weeks when im away. Right yeah?? Wonder what im talking about..Dun tell ya!! :P:P I read my fren's blog and indeed,i get to noe more about that particular someone. As in.. what their perpective towards life including r/s and more. Kinda interesting on some post that they have written. I do agree that when ya in love, u simply feel easily contented when ya spend just a litte time together. But for my case kinda sad. Cos im not that close to him as all we started it off is thru MSN. So yeah... :( :( But..wonder how is he now?? Its been 3 days that we didnt chat. No reasons why i didnt chat with him. Im just testing out sth on him!! Wanna make him feel my initative cannot be taken for granted. N i must oso let a guy to love me more than i love him. If not, i wun feel the HAPPINESS and LOVE that i always searching for. Is it really that hard?? Well, i have too much to say right now but i kinda tired as tml gonna wake up super early for Director's cup street soccer organised by Bizen and iHUB. Shit it!!!! ARGH~~~ Hope everything will run smoothly :D Wish me all e best ;) Take care ppl~ Counting down 21 Days p.s: I really miss him :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Thursday, July 24, 2008 Today those students going to LAOS met up with Mr Tan in the morning. He brief us the details what is going to happen there. 12 IFC students who were there are confirmed while the rest are still pending. There might be students from BIZ.. Hmmm... We will be divided into two groups. One will be website designing while the another grp will incharge of teaching ENGLISH.. LOLX It is decided by teacher... N hopefully i get to teach ENG.. :P:P Confirmed date that we were be going there will be 15-28AUG. Timing couldnt confirm as they have yet booked the Flight tickets. But in any ways, i must inform my working side the unavailability of working for this 2 weeks. In the preparation of going to LAOS, next week gonna be a tight schedule for all of us. We gonna have to go for medical checking, injection and training. Training will be based on the respectively areas we r incharge with which is either English or Website Designing... All this will be done during our SIP time.. HMMMM.... I cant wait tml cos i am going out to eat with Alvina and gang. HEE~~~ Most of us couldnt wait in fact as we have too much to say and share. Afterall we hardly see or catch up. So.. gonna take this time for some bonding session. HAHA~~~ Enough abt my LAOS trip.., lets abt the SPECIAL HIM den.. :P It has been two days i didnt click on him to chat. Its kinda a torture to me and the sight of his nick make me feel even tempted to go click on him to chat. ARGH~~~~~ Wonder will he clicked on me soon or...NEVER?? Afterall, he got noticed my nick. So i will keep changing till it caught his attention.. :P:P p.s: Miss him deep deep Counting down to 22 Days :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 How i wish everything can come to an end ASAP can?? Theres so much stress on me. MP SUCKS. supposed to have lots of energy and confidence or even interest but cos of my Supervisior.. SIGHHHH... LAOS LAOS LAOS.. how i wish i can fly over there soon too. Leave Singapore for awhile.. Kinda sick n tired of the life im hvin now. Even there is nth much to see or shop but still, all i wish for is REST. HEHE~~~ :D:D Reading some of my friends' blog. Glad that they r movin on happily. Such as Sandra, Dexter, Tzechoong, Pamela, Jel and many more.. I miss em damn lots though some of em no longer close with me anymore :( due to some reasons?? Which im not even sure. They always remembered inside my heart. They brought me joy n laughter that i wun forget. Appreciated! Wish em all e best ;) Work is boring. A girl just tender and ended up im the only girl in the shop. For the first time, im the only girl in a outlet.. DAMNIT!!! :( Besides, heard sharon is transferring to VIVO. Dunoe if its a gd or bad thing... HMMMM.... Tokyo drift replied my friendster mail. Kinda short i could say. Might as well dun reply. If not bcos of SK ppl, i dun think i would want to msg him. p.s: I miss him~~~~~~~~ Counting down to 23 Days :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
One day didnt get to tok to him. I MISS HIM~~ Wonder did he find it weird that i didnt msg him in the morning or chat with him on that day.. :(( My buddy dun like him. He find that the guy not suitable for me. Ask me to open my eyes BIG BIG and look around the person beside me. The prob is I DUNOE, how to guess who is the one rite?? GOSH.. I just told my buddy that i prefer the person who liked or interested in me to confess. No pt treating me so good though the feelings can be very sweet and the relationship with the person can build from there. But at times,its reali hard to guess who is the REAL one. Moreover u r surrounded not more than just one guy or only have one guy friends???? HMM... He kept telling me there are a guy existed but dun wanna tell me. And another pt of time, he got asked if i forsee any chances with the person that he ANYHOW pin point. OMG~~ Stop it man. HAHA~~~ I do noe wanna guess anymore.. :P:P      Today some little update from my supervisior. He still dun hv any news abt the flight timing but we will be flying off to Bangkok followed by Laos. How i wish more on the details so that i can able to pass down the msg to HIM and my working place. :) Counting down to 24 days :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Monday, July 21, 2008
Today kinda scary cos i didnt mean to lie to this guy to i like to paste a link. It supposed to be scary but when he asked, i told him its not and asked him to trust me. i even asked him to listen to both side of his earpiece. However, he was kinda angry and said i bluff him. I didnt noe he kinda take it to heart and i tot he noe tt im didnt mean it anyway. My intention was just to let him watch that website and den in the end of it LAUGHOUTLOUD. Sigh... Thank god he told me tt hes not angry and claimed that hes not petty. He just asked me dun lie. I noe im wrong. SORRY~ Dun dare to lie to anyone le.. =x
He kinda sounded that he dun wanna tok to me sia.. HOW??Sianzation~~~~ :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Sunday, July 20, 2008 Well oh well, the new working place i just transferred to is FREEZING COLD. Gonna bring and wear whenever im working WITHOUT fail. Cold till both hands are kept inside my pockets at all times and it affects my mood too. Moreover, those ppl there are rather boring. WORKWORKWORK and dun tok or play. SIMPLYdiff from the two outlets im working at previously. Why is it so?? Ask me, ask who?? HAHA Tml working Morning shift. Anson sure gonna release me later till 8. Might as well work FULL nor. GODDAMNIT.. YAWN. im turning in already. Take care everyone. p.s: TOKYO DRIFT added me in friendster. I see no pt and i see no sincerity. Wonder will we tok and develope further as friends... :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Well oh well, misses him lots. Another more mth, he is coming back le. So thrilled to get to see him. However the time when he come back, i am flying off alr. I still dunoe whats my flight details. Hopefully can be the same HEHE.. Today im so bored n i totally looked very ugly with my spects on. DAMN IT. Thank god it wasnt him around. If he is around, i make sure im in a gd state at all times HAHA :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Friday, July 18, 2008 Gosh... Deming and Darren have EEO CAMP. Leave me alone in the lab doing proj. I am so lonely~~~~~ HAIZ Brought donuts to school for em including Damien and Larry. Hopefully i can get to eat again this sat since i am working full shift. LOLX~~~~ So tired right now. My eyes is hurting me. Cant reali tahan anymore. Feel like resting my eyes more. :( Chatted with him today. So happy... :D :D Well, today i managed to see Chee sai and Joan. So happy to see both of em especially la den i told them the LAOS trip news and they were rather shocked. HAA~~ They keep asking me the same qs as what others asked me too. Asked whats the sudden of me going there. Well oh well... Theres no reasons actually. Basically just to go there to relax and GAIN EXPERIENCE.. ;) They oso knew abt his return. They kinda find how come GOD is like playing a trick on us?? The date when i am flying off and at the same time he coming back to Singapore. HAHA~~~ But what to do yeah?? If we r fated, guess u guys noe what i mean yeah?? HAAHAA :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Thursday, July 17, 2008 Im flying off on 15 Aug. Details haven confirm. Will upload once e details are confirmed. :) The minutes i put tat date on my nick, he MESSAGE me. OH MY GOD~ For the 1st time he clicked on me. HEHE~ He tot the date referrng to his arrival date in Singapore. Den i told him that im referring to the date i am flying off to LAOS den he abit LL already. He mistaken that i dun wanna tok to him. He sound very hm..angry? HAHA So cute lah. :P:P Baofa this days got msg me. Out of the sudden i must say. Messaging for two days already. HAHA~ Non-stop suaning and non-stop logic theories to share. HAHA :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 i dunoe why i seems to have many tasks coming up ever since i am gg to LAOS. now i am organising a street soccer with BIZEN. Competition match will starts next week. In the meantime, preparation nid to rush out b4 we could meet up the referee and the captain leaders. besides, since my grp got go to LAOS, we are incharge of learning the Macromedia Studio Dreamweaver and Flash. We nid to finished up the tutorials and have a tutorial on this two programs and teach the rest of the students who are going. My grp have yet finished the project. im so worried. after the return of the trip, my mp will extend and we will have to continue on there.. :( Besides, before i leave, there are many things that i will need to settle for my club - iHUB Recruitment Drive, EPS and IFC Camp. Yuanjian, my VP is untouchable as he needs full concentration on his Finals Competition. For now, i have too many things on hand till i cant breathe. Guess im falling sick. However thank god i still have my main com. We r getting closer in a way and im glad we r movin on in this way. Do hope when im away, they are able to handle all by themselves.. :D Today early in the morning, i cried very sadly cos of someone. A fren who almost have 2yr plus of friendship. I needed help and i needed urgently, thats why i looked up for him. As i need it urgently, i nid him to get back to me asap as how i told to other friend of mine. However, he jumped to a wrong assumption which sadden and gif a shock of my life. He misinterpreted my meaning. He thinks i regard him as a slave where i didnt even say or do so? So i have no idea why he say so or think this way. Besides, i am asking him for help not bcos i regard him as one of my main com or what so ever, this is bcos he is my fren. I tot whenever a person nid help, they can always turn to the person whoever they are a fren of theirs?? Arent we friend? When deming and darren saw the message, they were rather shocked cos i didnt even mean that way as i didnt even write to have that meaning. I was so sad that i cried after reading it out. My tears just keep dropping.... Why must he hurt me one and again... Besides that, another guy hurted me by lying to me sth. Its hard to say the situation over here. I cried when i told deming i went for toilet. He saw how sad i was and consoled me as usual. But guess..gg LAOS is a gd decision for me. Gif myself a BREAK of everything. Do hope i could enjoy a little when im there. :D :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Monday, July 14, 2008 Today went out with Caiyun n Lilian. We updated each other with lots of hot stuffs and gossips as usual. Wohoo~~~ HAHA~ Had lots of fun as usual and i indeed miss them lots. Today was my first day at VIVO. Got some misunderstandings but too lazy to type it here. HAHA~~ But over there, was very cold i can say. Gonna bring jacket the next time le :D Well, there is sth i would like to raise it up here to everyone. I do noe some of u guys read my blog but pls kindly do not raise any issue that i written in my blog in public esp those who didnt catch up or dunoe that i have blog. Kinda weird when i met this kind of situation as i will sometimes dun feel like answering any. So do seek of ur understanding. :) Besides, theres nth wrong tt i have someone new in mind. Though the person that i liked previously still remains in my heart. He wun be forgotten that easily. :)    :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Saturday, July 12, 2008 Once again, it seems i am still havin my belated celebration. Once again, no cake haha~~~ But its okay cos i managed to celebraion wth those grp friens whom i wanna celebate with. Unlike some friends who promised me so but didnt hold on to their promises. It doesnt matter did u get me anything as long U GUYS are there to celebrate my big day! I guess everyone would want all their friends to be around for their bday without anyone less.. Ytd meet up with Josephine,Angel,Geraldine,Crystal, Syaza and Liyana. Thanks for the present. I'm lovin it! Counting the total no of bags in my room right now, are countless. Gonna clear my room mess sooner next few weeks b4 i fly off to LAOS. For ur info, my grp are selected to go to LAOS together with our supervisior and the rest of the 17 students to LAOS. We will be gg there as a grp to teach website designing and setting up of wireless network connection! I'll be busy in few weeks time. Attending course and learning of some lang as we will have to use very very simple and basic eng assising them. Kinda looking forward but at the same time, gonna be missed. Two days b4 he came back, i wun be around. So during the two weeks, i may not noe what will happen or even in the process of the preparation, will there be any change. I shall wait and see.. :D  Below are some presents whom i received from my collegues and poly friends. Quite some time ago, its just that im too lazy to take any pix.. :P  By huiru and shufeng  By Gerard and huizhen  By lilian, Felicia and caiyun :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
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