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Monday, March 10, 2008 Some things i would like to share with u all - Part 1 Hey guys, its me again! ;) Currently now i am having holidays so i have plenty of time to do the things that i want EXCEPT going Kbox or even Watch the show that i wanted to catch on YouTube. Damn it leh... Why ar??? Busy with work and upcoming MTC Camp as i will be the Co-Organiser of the event. Do hope after Week Zero, i am able to enjoy all i want. I wun be running ESC anymore. My decision will be final! So, i will gif my best of all on MTC and Week Zero. As for whether will i be participating in camps that is going around in ENG or TP, i tink i will still go and be participants. Cos u will get to learn more things and noe more friends :D Hehe~~~ There are some reasons why i dun wanna run ESC anymore. Being the main committee of the club is not that simple and easy as what others ppl think. Cos.. some of them just never put themselves in our shoes or even tink in a different angle. But what to do rite?? We cnt blame them too. All i can say its just one of their selfish way of thinking. Why do i say that?? When i was in Year 1, i was the sub-committee of ESC. I was under Jason Gay and Jason Pang. They guide me along the way and taught me lots of things. I saw their effort and i saw their hardwork which was why i decided to take over and decided that i wanted to do the same thing that they can do. When i went for the election, alot of ppl rather supportive but when its come to the result, it wasnt as expecting. Rather dissappointing. But what to do rite?? One say or say, they do another thing. So untrusthworthy as they dun mean what they say.. but i dun blame them cos i believe they will sure regret with their choice. Straight after we have some few events, conflicts and disaggrement arised as expected. Some ppl dislike some ppl in the main committee. As in they dun like the way they are doing etc. When they actually said that, they added that they regret to vote for the person or even came to think what changes them. As i am part of the group, they see me as a whole. They tot that i'm change and they even tot that i will support in any ways that they are doing etc. But they are wrong. I was rather depressed at the moment of time when they see me, they see me/ tok to me or even greet me as a stranger. I just feel that we are no longer behaving like in the past and we no longer had much time for anything else. Everything seems to tied me down to the max which i cant describe or explain. I feel so weird out of the sudden that i began to be stay away from the club including the ppl in there. I didnt even tok to the ppl belong to same room level neither do i tok to those ppl whom i noe from camps. Until one day, they came to look for me to ask me out as they see me alone in the room. I went out with them and i tried talking things out to them and i cried. Everything from the start is being unfair to me. I lose alot of friends whom i used to closed to or even made alot of enemies not intentionly. But the things now is i am not gg to care anymore as i am stepping down. I'm choosing to be with my friends. I decided to spend the time with my loved ones and do the things that i'm enjoyed doing. Hopefully by next year, i will get to enjoy a little and have plenty of fun and rest at the same time. :)) Can i?? I will...... But still.. at some moments of time, when some ppl told me that the ppl in there seems to hide from me alot of things or even they cant be trusted but at times, i do enjoyed myself in there with the ppl . Sometimes i do wonder who are real and who should i believe. I struggled alone and seriously, no one will understand how i feel cos personally, i am a naive girl who believes in ppl very easily and wun easily tink of other things. What to do rite??? A girl who get hurt easily... Well, i gg to end this soon and i cant wait seriously. I will still miss the fun that i had with them and of cos the work that i am dealing with and of cos the room i always slack in there. :(( Hopefully i wun cry during the last day of event. I swear..... :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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