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Saturday, November 24, 2007 I had enough! Well, i really had enough of what had happened all these while. Sometimes i find some people are really very scary. Looks in disguise. People can be so fake till they can act to be nice and friendly to u but in fact THEY ARE NOT!!! =x I really dunoe who to believe.. Who are real?? Are they lying?? Or should i say why do i have to bother or care much about them if they themselves dun even put themselves in my shoes??? But seriously.. sometimes.. i do wonder.. And i really want to noe!!!! The place and the people whom i noe there and here now brought me tears, saddness and have became negative in thinking. I used to one bubbly smiley girl though i still appear to be so. Noe so many people oso no use cos not ALL are ur friends. Just when they needed a fren, i'm always there for them.. But.. how come when i needed a fren, where are they at the first place??? However these sign oso show u who are really ur true friend. :D Besides, sometimes people can just conclude things without finding out or ask to clarify things themselves. For example, They didnt even see or heard things from the first hand people but from the another people. They believed and they kanna affected and believe in em. Sometimes, truth are hidden. Sometimes u have to go ask it urself in order to clarify EVERYTHING u wanna noe. No point argueing and discussing with people w/o u guys go ask them urself. Do u tink u will get the ans by then?? Seriously.. it would be better if u go ask them urself instead u go round asking other people instead of the people u should be asking for.. Get what i mean?? I seriously had enough! I'm trying to be nice to everyone but it seems no one seems to be pushing me around. Dun see me as if i belong to that place. cm'on.. u noe who i am and what kind of person i am. Just cos u dun like this particular person and u outcast me! Do u tink all these is being fair to me?? I've been trying really very hard to do things to change. But the prob is i am not given a chance to do so. In fact i should say, many were wondering and even ask my own people why. I do wonder if my capabilities cnt compared to whosoever who always involve?? Even i had work commitment outside, i dunoe how to set prioritise. If i heck care all these, i seriously have lots of free resting and slacking time. I can get to catch up with many many people and do many many things. At the same time, worked more n earn more!! lolx~ Why make my life so difficult when i care so much with all these?? Seriously i do wonder go on with my lives by doing what i like to do or supposed to do. But sometimes these kind of thingy do really distracts me. Is it the probs lies on me or on them?? I really have to stand on my feet again. I really wanna show my best to the people n tell em that not all people in there are this kind of people. I'm not attitude and i'm capable too. Plz come back cos i miss the fun time i had with u guys. I really dun wanna lose u guys. Plz dun waste my effort in emailing u guys and building up relationship with u guys. I sincerely want u guys! Its really okay if u didnt really get into the post u want. Even if u get into other post, its okay. Just take it as u try sth new! Be responsible with the task u have n finish it up. N if u really realized that u really dun like at the end of the event, dun go back anymore but sometimes u do have to go back. Afterall u r always working with diff people. Just like me! Trying to be helpful but the got people said i'm interferring. So yeah. Who cares?? Shall not say anything good for u already. Hell or heaven for u, i oso dun care. God damn it! :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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