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Wednesday, June 28, 2006 L-O-V-E? I will always rmb wat happened on 27june06. The first time i ever ever confess my feelings to a guy whom i have true feelings for. But.. It can oso considered tt i never reali confess to him too.. I just asked what he tink abt me and i even told him that i am in love with a guy and i wanted to tell him but.. i dun wan the friendship to end jus like that after i confess to him which i tink its most likely impossible. But after I get what he mean,i decided not to tell him that the person is actually him. I felt terribly upset that i still nid to hide my feelings and face our friendship. I felt so helpless at that moment. Simply heartbroken. Tears jus rolled down my cheek while i was talking to him and even my classmates who helped me wat to say to him. After the incident,i dun tink i have the courage to confess my feelings to a guy ever again. I reali afraid the outcome will always be the same. I dun wan to be heartbroken again and again.. Am i that worse? Am i such a failure? It is reali hard to be with someone whom u truely love and had feelings for. I just wanna be with him. Really wan my last bf to be the one-and-only and the last one till we get married. Am i very silly to tink that way? sigh.. Maybe i am thinking too much... Abt this guy i had feelings for is LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. He is really not bad looking.. Can say not not bad looking but very HANDSOME. lolx~ I met him a year ago at a street show and i overcome his friendster acc and i added him. :D From den,we always communicate and get to noe one another thru friendster email. And after so many months both of us finally meet! I get to see him at a showcase. He noticed me first and he even shouted my name very very loud "SHARON!! ITS ME..!!" After i looked at him for awhile,i finally recognise cos he really look very diff from the friendster pix. He looked even better in person. Gosh.. Reali unforgettable moment at tt time! ;) But.. we hardly spend time with each other such as just gg out for a movie or so. And somemore i am the one who always asked him out BUT he always have no time for it. He is too busy to go out n he dun always stay out late. Wat a good guy! Sigh.. Though i already noe there is simply no hope in this relationship yet i still carry a hope. I am so foolish yeah? haha~ Well everything is over i guess.. I didnt confess to him afterall cos he said things will went smoothly if both parties is very close. if not,the friendship will jus drift away after u confess. So i guess i get wats his meaning and i decided not to tell anymore. Like wat he said.. Time will heals. Is it gonna be true? I must love myself so that my relationship with others will always improve. Is it true? Can someone tell me what he said make sense? Though we chatted almost an hour or so.. I am very quiet throughout the conversation and jus kept reading what he wrote.whatever he said,i jus replied it does make sense though something he said doesnt reali make any sense. All i wanna tell him is STOP SAYING TT I AM STILL YOUNG. thats all. Friends and family is all i have. Though now got pl like me but i dun like em cos at tt time,i kept carry a hope tt he is interested in him but i was wrong. But i of cos wun take anyone as my bf. Like wat my fren said,i must let pl who love and interested in him to notice me instead i notice pl. Even i notice pl tt i am interested in,i muz let him notice me instead.. Well that night is simply unforgettable. Even i look strong to my frens when i went to sch,but deep inside my heart is reali very painful! :'( :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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