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Friday, November 04, 2005 Hey guys its mi again~ guess tis is my 2nd post for today. Perhaps i jus wana write down wat hv i been thinking abt. Well,i reali dream of FIK & SLY. N guess wat? tis is my 1ST time dreaming of em n it seems so real to mi. I try dun tink too much but it jus seems so so real to mi n it jus couldnt get out of my mind. I jus dunoe wat am i saying now too. To some pl who hv read my blog earlier on,i guess u guys should noe tt my journey wit FIK & SLY is gonna end very very soon. I jus dunoe when but i guess it gonna be very soon. The reasons y i said tt is cos I NID MONEY. i nid MANY MONEY in order for mi to survive my life in poly. I gonna be INDEPENDENT from den onwards. Everything jus hv to pay on my own including books,transports,hp bills etc daily lives expenses. Guess it gonna cost alot n it is gonna be a stress for mi. Hopefully i can try to be thrifty as possible so tt i hv enough to spend for my 3 yrs in poly. In order for mi to hv enough to spend,i nid to wk. I nid to wk to earn alot alot of money. Honestly speaking,my family is not tt rich n my dad is wkin so hard alone to earn a living for tis family. Whereas my sis n bro is wkin n try to pay everything on their own including the things tt they wana buy n pay their own bills. I am the youngest among all n i still nid to rely on my family for financial support. Therefore i hv reali decided to wk under sales line. Sales line can enable mi to wk as much as i can but the prob is they dun allow employee to hv off day on WKEND. Guess i will not hv the chance to go down to events to support BOTH my FIK & SLY man. so sad huh? N yes,it will be a struggle to mi. Its not easy for mi to say BYE to em n put a STOP. Wat am i gg to do? I chase em since SI times but i only started to go to their events only TIS YR. I wun forget the 1st time they reali recognise mi n call out my name. That will be an unforgettable moment including my bday. They totally leave a GREAT impact in part of my life. They oso motivated mi to study hard n strive for the best for myself. They were the one who said "we must dare to dream,dare to try. Nth can come between mi n my dream." Tts y i started to be so emotional whenever i go to their events. As in no longer so hyper n shouted for em at events man. The only thing tt i do is jus stand there n listen to their performance n take pic of em when they r performing. No matter wat events they hv,i jus try my best to make it jus to show my support to em n let em noe tt i'm there n i'm very glad tt they always noe i'm there. They nv failed to wave at mi,smile at mi,look into my cam n hv eye-contact wit em. I'm very touched. At least my effort was pay off. Inside my heart,i knew i can no lger go to their events as often in future. Therefore i'm very sure tt they will forget mi for sure.. Even one day i'm bk to their event n say "hello" n even asked if they rmb mi? I guess they will say " i'm sry.. i dun tink i rmb u.." Guess it gonna always remain in part of the MEMORIES only.. whenever they r singing,my heart is crying wit pain. I jus couldnt imagine if that day will to reali come. I cnt dun wk.. if i dun wk,my life will be very tough. I cant rely on my parents. I nid to wk so tt i can also pay n sign up for the course tt i wan. Dun 4get my dream is to become a singer! sigh.. So when i reali dream of FIK & SLY. i was so shocked. Cos i dream tt they call out my name n even request if they can take pic wit mi leh. Can u imagine tt? i dun tink in reality,they will do tt too. I am jus a fan to em. Not a extradionary fan. I even dream the upcoming SS showcase on 19nov too. I dream tt both of em call out my name n stand aside as they hv sth to say to mi. They thanked mi for all the things tt i hv done n they very touched n blessed to hv mi as fans. I nv failed to attend their events even i'm sitting for Os tis yr. N lastly they sang mi a song. I even dream tt everyone in FIKNATIC were given a say n say out their msg to mi. I was touched by everything n cried. Am i thinking too much? i guess so cos i kept thinking tt it was jus a dream n it will nv be true. But i believe tt on tt day,i will cry.. Hopefully if there is any game sect or watever,i can get on stage to hv upclose n personal wit em. i jus wana grab every moment wit em.. can i? i doubt so.. :( :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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