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Friday, October 21, 2005 Hey guys.. Its mi again~ Finally hv abit of free time to update my blog. Well,i jus received two pl who hv confirmed wit mi tt they can make it to LEANDRA's bday. Therefore i left abt 23 pl in my list who can go.. So those pl who r interested to go,Do do do grab tis chance ASAP n email mi to inform mi yeah? If not,i dunoe when is the nx chance for u guys to c her so upclose n personal..So do take tis opportunity n cherish it yeah? hee~ Well,today is my practical. Kinda very sucking lah. I kept panicking sia. But end up all my oberservation n results is diff from my fren. So i tink i reali gonna die for my practical. So i gonna do my very very best on science MCQ n structured Qs lor. Or else i dun tink i can score well n get into the course tt i wanted to go.. God,pls pray for mi!! Sigh.. Besides tt,ytd i was talking to my sis n she was browsing thru the STARIDOL website. Cos her fren's fren cousin is inside n somebody too..haha~ Den now Channel U is hvin lots of prog cmin up such as project superstar 2006, super band,super host etc.. My sis was wondering if i am joining the project superstar nx yr n i said YES. I am not gonna slip off any chance and take part in watever singing competition if there is any to grab the chance. Who knows someone reali acknowledge my talents n appreciates mi.. N who knows pl r reali willing to groom mi up to become the nx idol? Tis type of things is reali very hard to say now too. But jus hoping for the best for myself. :) Well,singing n music is my interests since i was young. N to become a singer is my dream since then. Surprising yeah? I nv ever change wat i wanna be in future but i jus wana do sth tt i enjoyed doing n share wit pl.. I always envy those singers or band cos they were at least given the chance to perform on stage to show their talents. Besides tt,i cant even imagine i hv my OWN FANS man. tt would be great n cool thing to hv too. But my greatest wish is to become a very successful n talented artiste. I not only wan to become a singer,i also wan to1 be a host,actress and composer. Cos if i reali enter tis entertainment industry,there is many things tt i nid to try n work it out. Everything also must try to show my worth. dun ya pl agreed? For example fik n sly. They began their journey as a singer n they even release their album. But aft tt, acting was proposed to em to try it out. Everything jus turns out alright n GREAT too. It receives overwhelming responses from the fans and audience too. Tis shows tt if u nv even try,who knows u r not good at it. Aftall everyone hv our 1st time. As in 1st time in doing n trying out things. As lg we put in the effort,wk hard n try,i tink things will jus turn out unexpectedly as u expected. Most of my fren knows tt i love singing n music. Simply cant live w/o listening to songs n singing in class or at home or anywhere everyday. i oso nid to listen some music b4 i slp too.. haha~ N even my classmates n every of my frens noe tt my dream is to become a singer. Therefore i am reali working hard on it. I dun reali fancy what type of music i listen to. As lg its music,i oso like even it is those JAZZ.. depends.. But i always listen to sentimental,rock,pop etc but not those JAZZ those kind.. haha~ In the family, i am the only one who is very into music. If there is a exam on singing or guess who sing tis songs or wat,i sure score very high one but not the title of the songs. Cos there is too many to be remembered lah..haha~ Anyway i am gg to find a job aft Os. I nid to find a job tt can allow mi to earn alot n keep my day passes very quickly too.. Esp sales line. I nid plenty plenty of money esp when i am gg to poly aft Os. I gonna be totally independent when i enter poly man. i gonna follow my sis n bro footstep. try n learn to be independent. I oso nid to wk while i am studying. i simply cnt imagine what my life would be like in poly. i jus wondering if i am able to hang on n adapt everything ard mi. Gonna pay my own hp bills,trasnsport,food etc daily life expenses. Can u imagine how much money i nid yeah? smmore i am a girl who like to go out shopping n gather wit my fren. tis nids money too. Besides,i nid the money to sign up to the courses tt i wan n tt is vocal training or even dancing. Both if possible. do u tink i can survive? But if i hv a job,i dun tink i hv any more much time to go to my idols event too.. wat should i do? they will forget mi for sure n dun rmb mi anymore.. dun tell mi what i hv done for all these while for em is gonna gone jus like tt? i tink i gonna cry like hell.. like shit.. But i believe some pl will be damn happy tt i no lger gonna get into their way if that day is gonna come man. I guess they,they n they all wun rmb mi anymore n contact mi tt much too.. :( I gonna create my own dreams n i nid to depend on my own to pursue n fulfill it. I make sure nth can come between mi n my dreams. I make sure i gonna work extra exta hard to earn enough money and train up my vocal singing everyday at hm. N yes,i even hv the thought of participating SI two.. do u tink i can? I doubt so.. but most pl tink i can do it n believe in mi. I dun understand y my frens n some other pl hv 100% faith in mi.. I jus dun understand. They gif mi lots of encouragement jus dun make mi hv low conident in myself. I am simply very touched lah. But i am still waiting for a chance to be able to prove my worth. Therefore i am still waiting.. Hope one day my dreams reali can come true. But i make sure everything will balance it out including my idols' event. i make sure i still can make it as usual n provide pl my greatest collection of event pic tt i took.. n more.. Besides tt,i oso very troubled over some matter too. I tink i reali fall in love with someone. I dunoe if its love or crushed. Its been a lg time tt i nv hear from him ever since we exchanged no man. My fren kept saying perhaps he's busy? I was like..i jus dunoe.. I try dun tink too much n awaiting for his reply cos i believe one day he will reply. I try to gif him one wk.. I oso try dun make my actions too obvious tt i am interested in him. I jus wish everything can take one step at a time. I dun even hv confident in myself. I dun even mind if i can try things out wit him. Cos u nv try,u nv noe if things can reali work out,rite? to mi,i always tink tt most guys usually go for appearance than looking at pl's inner beauty. But as for him,i jus dunoe.. Sigh.. Sad sad.. N my last relationship was abt 2 or 3 yrs ago.. so it was like.. haiz.. sigh.. Lastly,i am very happy over someone lah. He still rmb mi. He nv ever forget mi. haha~ He even asked mi to come down to support him aft my Os..haha~ so happy lah. hv fun emailing him all this while.. But i sure will go down aft my Os cos its been a lg lg time tt i nv c him in real person n he nv c mi too. Besides,he also say he will call out to mi if he reali happens to c mi on street on watever..Awww.. so sweet.. haha~ Nvm lah.. happy to hear tt.. ;) Hope his bro can make it to the competition too. Gonna c him reali very very soon too.. hee~ gonna go wit my sis,sis's fren n gang.. not very sure too.. haha~ jus cant wait for tis day lah. anyway i still wana wish for miracles to happen. Jus hope more miracles can happen more often.. as in happen anyday anytime will do.. haha~ Wish the things tt i hv been hoping for can come true. I oso hope my effort wun waste n the judges n pl n even the idols r touched by my determination,my perserverance,my hard work,my belief n what i believe in. I'm glad to noe who r being wit mi at all times. At least i still hv my family,my frens including those tt i noe thru idols' event and my idols of cos.. I even told em my dream but yet to hear a reply from em. Hopefully they visit my blog n read my tis post.. It reali means alot to mi.. :) Sry if tis post is long cos tis is what i always wanted to say all tis while n it hv been keeping it inside my heart for very long. Besides,i hv always hv the same thinking n dream at all times since i was young. I jus hope god will always there wit mi to move on towards my dream. I believe god will totally gif mi the strength to move on n hang on at all times. Wit god,i tink everything tt i tink is impossible will become possible. I must hv positive thinking n i mustnt tink negatively. The more i dun tink i can make it,it will turn out to be the same. Therefore i must WIN.. WIN WIN WIN.. gambatte.. jiayou.. work hard..!! take care guys.. *peace* God bless :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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