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Friday, May 27, 2005 BuSy DayS.. Hi guys..its been a lg time tt i nv update my blog man.. been very bz lately.. sign.. anyway i am gg to write what hv i been bz from sun till the latest one nor..haa~ Sun 22/5/05 : Today is my last day of wk at ASTRO sia.. Kinda very happy. Cos when i first started wkin,i fall sick den kinda very irritated n pissed off too.. Mood kinda not gd too..haa~ But den i make a request to finish my wk earlier cos i am meeting liah n her fren whom i jus knew too.. n tt is Raudah..haa~ E sight of liah reali make mi feel great sia.. Plus tis girl,Raudah... Its reali turn out to be a super duper great meeting!! Both of em reali make mi laugh non-stop as usual man..haa~ therefore my mood began to lighten up lor..hee~ We talk n joke alot alot.. But at e meantime,we ate brownies which i bought from taka and drank alot of water too. Therefore our bladder reali gg to burst cos the place dun hv toilet. N we leave e place at abt 10 plus n i reach hm at abt 11.45pm or so lor.. haa~ when i went bk hm,i am so damn damn tired n my whole body is so achin man.. lucky e nx day is a public holiday therefore i decided to take a day off n stay at hm n rest as lg as i wan.. These are the pics which we took during our free time..   But at e same time,tt day Fik is appearin for a religious talk at Bedok stadium. Too bad tt both mi,liah n raudah nv go sia.. Fira called mi aft she saw taufik went off in a some sort of maxi la.. Den she told mi what happen on tt day lor. reali regret nv go cos taufik wore Baju Kurung man.. omg~ nv c him wearin tt type of clothing man. reali cant wait to hv tt chance again to c him in tt man..haa~  Mon 23/5/05 : YohOo.. Its a public holiday man.. oh my god.. I slp n rest till very lg sia.. At abt 1 plus? haa~ pig rite? lolx~ no choice la.. too tired oreadi.. smmore aft wkin,i got go out leh.. smmore very late den cm bk hm too.. Therefore my leg,my back is so so so pain. Cant stand it sia.. smmore i kept lie on my bed like a sick patient. but in fact,i'm still sick at tt time. hAa~ nv reali go out on tt day man cos i dun feel like too.. smmore today is my fren's bday n my mum dun allow mi to go out but stay at hm n study nor.. abit regret n angry cos tis fren of mine lg time nv c her liao leh.. both bz wit our own stuffs. Therefore oways contact each other thru sms or msn lor..sign.. sry girl!! Tues 24/5/05: Alamak..toDay go bk to sch liao man.. So tired as usual.. I oways complaint tt i'm tired n bz infront of my frens. Therefore my best fren n my classmates oways said i am like a business woman lor.. Cos whenever they flip my schdule book,it is all scribble wit things gg on everyday aft sch. So whenever they wana ask mi out,they dun dare oreadi cos they wry i might reject them as usual. Crazy rite? they nv even ask how they noe rite? smmore i can cancelled any date if i wan though i hv plans on tt day lor. Its all depend on mi..jus ME!! haa~ But not e 1st time tt i reject their date la..no choice.. Cnt afford to squeese a little time for em lor but fren,i will try to make it up jus for u guys for the upcomin june holidays k? dun blame mi.. i oso very kelian..haA~ Wed 25/5/05 : Alamak.. Wed again.. Chinese mock exam.. Stress!! Ever since i finishs my mid yr exam on 13/5/05,i didnt reali hv any off day sia.. been bz these n that.. Kinda cnt stand it lor.. TIs yr very hectic sia.. Aftall tis yr is a crucial yr.. Somemore O lvl leh..die liao la.. Nv reali study too..Haha~ but den when i am doin,i kinda very calm leh.. Dunoe y sia.. I look as if i am very confident too.. But aft doin the two papers,i immediately put my head on e table n slp for 30 mins sia..haa` my fren oso nv wake mi up too cos they noe i nid rest.. as in i nid plenty of rest than em..haA~ aftall i get tired n stressed easily than anyone else though i appear very relaxed in sch at all times..haa~ Lucky i today dun hv tuition at hm sia.. or else i will die even sooner.. Even more stressed n tired.. therefore b4 today,i sms my teacher tt i wana postponed to tis cmin sat lor.. phew..lucky man.. thank god!! Thur 26/5/05 : wOw.. today as usual.. abit relaxed cos ytd rest too much le.. Sit infront of e computer for almost 3hr or so la.. no choice.. too many msn windows liao. cnt even moved my ass awhile sia.. pl might tot i dun wana ans their qs etc la..haiz.. as usual.. Den i ytd slp at 12 sth lor. Den when i woke up today kinda cnt stand it again.. very tired.. wana slp again but i cant la.. mus go to sch jus for the sake of my upcomin O lvl exam tis mon lor..haiz.. Den today is oso a day tt i received my report book lor. When i flip,i am so damn damn upset wit my results. Den when i go hm n let my mum c,she nag n nag n nag non-stop. kinda cnt stand it la.. She compared tis n tt la.. as usual lor. But den cnt blame mi wat.. Ask her do the exams herself la.. Pin so high hope on mi for wat.. siao.. As if i like studyin like tt.. Dun 4get i am more interested in singing n music lor.. It is my dream,my passion. I am not the only one tt score so low esp for tis mid yr man.. ALot of pl oso didnt do well too cos teacher set very difficult For sec 5 students lor. Aftall all of us used to normal academic standard n we only hv a short time to pull up ourselves to close the gap between express n normal(a) lor. haiz.. tts y i am so stressed!! tts y i am still unable to cope it well lor. tts what i told fik too.. fik was like oh ok.. poor girl like tis man.. N yes,i am very pathetic. I cant cope it sia.. though i oways put my ass infront of the com for hours,that doesnt mean i nv study at hm when i'm free or even put in effort on every class tests man. I got study one nor.. smmore score very high leh.. Or else how can i dare to promise infront of fik tt i will study hard rite? I oso get shocked wit my results.. It is so unexpected too.. My teacher nv blame mi but asked mi to jia you!! n yes,i will. u guys noe i will too.. u guys oso noe i hv the willingness.. u guys oso noe i hv been pushin myself very hard at all times. thanks for e trust unlike my mum. only judge mi by appearance.. kinda damn pissed! Say my attitude n temper changed to worst tis yr sia..alamak..where got? i even asked my fren n my fren said i am as usual.. mi jus mi.. nv even pretend or put a fake mask infront of anybody wheneva i go lor. Is u who dunoe mi tt well k? is u.. not my fault!! dun oways put e blame on mi.. As if i nv prove myself like tis sia.. I am doin tis for e sake for ur satisfaction okay? if not,i wana drop my studies n further my dream in music industry sia. All my fren noe tt too.. sign.. i reali cant wait to go karoake n sing out my anger,my stress.. tis is how i reali release my anger,my stress thru singing lor.. esp when i go kbox lor.. i dun care.. aft chn o lvl,i wana ask my fren again to acom mi go.. i jus dun care what my mum said. u jus cant stop it.. i want freedom. i dun like pl controlling mi too.. even my bf!!  I reali miss sly,fik n maia.. cant wait to c em reali soon~~ i want my freedom!! i nid more rest!! :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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