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Friday, May 19, 2006 SORRY Firstly i jus wanna say a BIG 'SORRY' to all my frens! Sry if i seems to be Missing In Actions these days. I didnt mean to. I am really very busy n tired ever since i started sch. I started blogging not so often anymore. Even there is things for me to update or even sth to share wit everyone of u, i felt lazy to type it out. Mainly everytime i got too many to say,so end up my entries will be very very long. So,when the day is over,i dun feel like updating n tok abt tt matter. Get wat i mean? I'm sorry for not updating for MORE than a month. But i will try to update as often as possible cos my frens who has been visiting my blog all this while have been asking me to UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE my blog! They wanna noe what have i been doin all this while. They are very interested to noe. They like e blog which i always includes many pix and update very often too. Really thanks! All the while,I tot no one is interested to noe abt my stuffs anymore. I tot no one bothered abt me cos i am not worth to anyone. they are getting sick of me! So whenever i get to meet up wit em,no one realli tok much to me anymore. All the fun tt we used to have is GONE. It has now becomes memories which i will always remember and looking forward tt it will happen again. I gets very upset whenever i tok or tink abt tis matter. I certainly knew tt i am not thinking too much but it is a fact! I no longer the ger tt pl r interested to noe. Perhaps they find me boring. I dunoe. We used to tok alot n even go out for shopping or jus go for lunch or dinner. N slowly, i get even closer to em. But i oso dunoe what happen again tt our friendships seems to drift away even FURTHER. Maybe there is a communication prob? Sorry tt my eng is not tt good anyway but i hv already try my best! I'm sorry again. But i tink they might hv noticed tt i am currently MIA. Maybe some of em didnt even notice cos they hv forgotten me already? Its okay,i'm used to it. I cried. I really cried. For very long.. But i still gets very happy to receive FORWARD msg from some of em. Or even received their msn msg. Its very sweet of u guys! I really appreciate it. I needed tt. N i miss the hug too. really thanks! :D Whenever i get upset over friendship probs,I seldom post my feelings,my thoughts in my blog though i am free to write watever i want. Afterall its my personal blog. BUT i worried tt i might offended any of my frens who are reading it. I dun wan to lose anyone of em cos they mean alot to me. I dun like to mention names in my blog unless its HAPPY moments. Some pl might even get mistaken when tt i am refering to em. But i'm sorry. I jus wan pl to read n feel exactly how i am feeling now. Perhaps after reading,they themselves will noe tt i am exactly refering to em. I reali love and cherish all my frens around me. I simply cant live w/o em. Though i hv MANY FRENS but i have a few GOOD frens . They are the ones i love hanging out with or even the one tt i will always confide to. Sometimes i didnt mean to dun contact em jus bcos i hv my POLY Frens now. Everyone of u will hv a place in my heart. i will try my best to at least call or msn or sms u guys to hv a short chat. Make sure u guys reply alright? :D Well,to pl who concern abt how hv i been doin, i have been doing GREAT in my poly. I love the class, i love the sch, i love all my frens there. In fact,i am much happier than i am in sec sch. But tis is jus the beginning. N of cos,i MISS my SEC sch frens. I miss em alot. But i am doin fine lah. so dun wry alright. I am still working while studying. Still working at the same old place,as a waitress. Jus trying to earn some money. Though i can earn abt 300-400 per mth,its better than nth. :D At least i can hv some moneys for my transport n hp bills. N of cos my daily expenses. ;) I do noe some of my frens do feel pain and pity for me tt i still nid to work while studying. Now studying already so tired n busy n yet i still gonna work on wkends. Therefore can consider tt i dun hv a day rest though soemtimes i dismissed early. But smtimes i still nid to stay back for meetings or proj discussion. So kinda tough la. But i am still hanging on though i am reali getting exhausted. Really thanks for the concern. I feel the LOVE tt u guys hv given to me. Thanks for encouraging me to quit. I appreciate it but i've told u guys the reasons y i cant quit. I had my own reasons for doing it. Smmore nid to work very hard to achieve my dreams. :D Though working and studying at the same time can be reali very tired and busy, i didnt fall sick. I tried telling myself tt i cant fall sick. I must be STRONG. But hopefully can make me slim down by losing my appetitie by eating less.. hee~ Tt will be a good news to me.. lolx~ Recently,i get to c my frens. That includes my schmates,sec n pri sch frens, and my outside fren of cos. I get very very happy when i saw em. Gosh.. it like meeting a long lost fren of mine. Make me feel tt i haven seen em for ages. In fact is true. Everyone are busy wit their own stuffs until we left out so many things around us. But at least i can see tt they are happy :D. thats the most impt thing tt i cocnern. HEALTHY N HAPPY at the same time. Anyway tts all for now. Nx wk i have 3-4 tests gg on. Gonna be a busy week for me. My bday is around the corner. how i wish i can get to buy the things tt i wanted. Or even go for holiday! Take care everyone. :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
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